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Day 29 - Self Quarantine

Hi.

So yesterday I finally fixed that leaky jet spray I have in my toilet. I felt this satisfaction because I just reached another level of living alone: fixing things without the help of a plumber. I mean as long as the damage was not big and I can fix it just by watching a YouTube videos, I think I can handle it.

Ah... I was so happy yesterday.

For a couple of days my package from internet shopping have been arriving and I had to go downstairs to pick them up (almost every day). Then yesterday when I picked an Innisfree moisturizer that I bought almost a week ago, I saw the cats near my tower and I was wondering whether they've eaten or not. Usually someone must've fed them, but looking at this situation, not many people go out just to feed them, I think. So I went back to my place and grabbed the cat dry food I've been keeping for months and I fed the cats. Surprisingly, there were a lot of cats turned up that day and they all ate what I gave. I was so happy but I forgot to bring my phone so no photos. Aah but that's okay.

I've been using this Slowly app, to send letters and find a new pen pal, but I haven't replied any of the letters because of the overwhelming situation I felt. But I finally gathered up my energy and replied about 3 letters. Life is getting better for me though..

And yup, tomorrow I have to go to the office and I hope the train is not packed. I've seen updates from Twitter where people protested the new schedule from the Commuter Line company to adjust with this social distancing situation. Instead of keeping people to stand 6 feet away, because of the new schedule and their policy to check everyone's temperature before entering the train station, people were lining up and I saw that they stood closely to each other.

Pfft

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