Gubak Surep

I sure do write a lot lately 😅 Yeah so since OUAT is in hiatus and I've caught up with its 129 episodes and I keep rewatching the episodes (the ones with Killian and CS scenes of course, duh) now it's time to catch up with The Flash and I'm just starting to watch season 2. Well usually I watched Glee Christmas episodes to feel the Christmas spirit, because it just, it means a lot to see a holiday theme in TV series, not to mention that it's close to my birthday too. I'm glad I was born around Christmas time 😂.  Raining outside, a hot tea, and a marathon from TV series and movies with winter are just perfect. But, since I've erased most of my collection (need to format my HDD and I only saved important ones 😔) I don't have anything to "celebrate" this holiday. I made a wish earlier today, that I wish I can watch an episode with Christmas theme, and at that time I can only remember Glee. But I don't have Glee in my HDD now... So I just ke

Hari ini adalah hari ibu. Yang orang Indonesia pahami adalah hari ini adalah hari khusus untuk orangtua perempuan, hari untuk Ibu. Yang mungkin tidak kita tahu adalah, 22 Desember adalah hari Perempuan. Tapi aku bukan mau cerita tentang sejarahnya, tidak. Aku cuma mau menulis kalau aku sedih, dan menyesal karena membeli tiket kembali ke Jakarta hari ini. Lion Air JT 255, PDG-CGK, yang harusnya boarding pukul 19.50 dan berangkat pukul 20.20 (tapi sampai sekarang belum ada pengumuman, classic). Ah, Nadiah.. Kenapa malah balik hari ini si? Tunggu sampai hari Senin aja kenapa? Ini lagi tahan-tahan air mata, abis peluk mama berkali-kali ga rela harus pergi lagi. Ah, tahun ini tahun penuh air mata haha :') Maaf ya, maunya cerita di sini. Ga mau cerita di status fb, twitter, line, atau instagram. Ma, I miss you already 😢

I woke up at 3 am again, but this time I woke up because of a bad dream. I dreamed something about a group project and I felt I was left out because I almost did nothing. Which I did, there was nothing I could do and I cried myself out when one of them talked to me. In that dream, I know how disappointing I was my tears just wouldn't stop. I woke up, and started crying. I just.. I am a disappointment.

I woke up early today, 3 am, and of course being a modern, internet savvy citizen, I opened my social media account to check.. things. And I found out that international DJ were tweeting about "Om Telolet Om", the Indonesian meme which actually was a hype a couple months ago. Since it was tweeted by Zedd, DJSnake, and some other DJs and other internationally recognized famous people, "Om Telolet Om" became famous again, and people are spamming, tweeting about it. And somehow, it made me happy. This so called stupid trend (for some people) actually made me laugh. Haha But on the other hand, I just noticed from 9gag that Mark Zuckerberg got Morgan Freeman as the Jarvis. Yup, apparently Mark has been building Jarvis for the past year AND HERE I AM CONTINUOUSLY RETWEETING SOMEONE FAMOUS ABOUT OM TELOLET OM. I also saw on Facebook that Mark had videos about his home and Jarvis, and a note explaining what he's been working. Ah, how did that make you feel.. Isn

1 October 2016 It was supposed to be my free day, but of course because I always mess things up, I wasn't free. In fact, I was strangled by my own choice, and the decision from higher power for me is to stay and have another restless month. Though the official statement was just for the first week, but the impact of my action will not be seen until the end of October. What have I done.. "Laan, sorry I just reply to your WA. I'm on my way, but stuck in a traffic jam. Where are you now?" I texted Ulan after confirming that I was going to Bandung as well, that I really needed this sweet escape. I took a bus from Depok to Bandung, the beloved MGI Bus. I sat near the window, where I could see the road outside and Lenteng Agung street were full of cars. These Jakartans loved to spend the weekend outside. Whether they headed to Bandung, or Puncak, or to the shopping mall. It was sunny outside, and the sun didn't really give mercy and showered us with heat. How

I think I'm in love.. Or in this new obsession/fangirling with Killian Jones or Captain Hook from Once Upon a Time series, which is played by Colin O'donoghue. His piercing eyes and dashing look just got me. But mostly, his true intention and his way of taking care of Emma and how he knows when something is not right and he is the only one who understands her and knows how to talk to her.. I'm just.. Gaaah And this is what I've been doing for the last couple of weeks, catching up with 116 episodes and, admire how beautiful Killian is. His smirk, his eyes, eyebrows. I'm single and you'd have to be Killian Jones to change that Dammit.

The clock is ticking, it's 1.30 am and I still can't sleep. I'm watching Korean Drama, and the story somehow represents the college life very well and the main character, for the first 3 episodes, seem a bit like me. Yes I'm watching kdrama again, as I need something to entertain my life because it's been boring and flat as hell I just live from day to day, from paycheck to paycheck. I try to balance it with talking with friends, or hang out on weekends. But it requires money and I am just broke af I need to save my money (not to mention that  I'll be unemployed -again- soon. 😂) Lately I bring a book in my bag, books I bought but I never read them, so I can read it on my way home. But since my phone magically installed an app called BeeMovie (I must've pressed the pop-up ad), I can just download kdrama straight to my storage. I've finished W - Two Worlds (oh don't we all want to get into our favourite manga world?), I watched Doctors (but not fini

Screw adulthood, I'm staying 20 forever! But of course I can't. And up to this point I have the urge to say fart life, I hate being an adult. I really want to leave this life and being a full-time volunteer, getting paid by meals and a house. No need to worry about society, responsibilities.. Ah.. This comes from, work. Not gonna spare you the details, it's just a phase I know. Just want to let it out as I'm trusting internet with strangers more than, my cat? K, bye. You, good night. Take care. Stay healthy. See you

tel em llet uoy tahw si ni ym deefswen : elpoep gnitteg degagne - elpoep gnitteg deirram - elpoep gnitteg pihsralohcs - elpoep gnitteg "laer" - dna os no, dna os no... llew, I evig pu I t'nod eveileb taht ll'I yrram enoemos, yademos m'I ton neve erus taht enoemos ekil em, ekil me hturt si, on eno reve dessefnoc sih gnileefs, ot em m'I ton neve deifilauq ot teg a pihsralohcs, ro ot eunitnoc ot yduts daorba... os etarepsed koped, 6102-20-80

"jangan makan mie malam-malam.." "tapi, tapi, lagi mau.. LAGI MAU!" "jangan makan mie malam-malam, tar susah dicerna, kalorinya banyak, tar energinya disimpan jadi lemak. ja-ngan!" *brb ke indomaret* *beli gekikara ramen goreng* *eh ada taro waffle, beli juga ah* Aku lagi masuk siklus hormonal, oke? #alasanklasik Eh bener kook, dalam kondisi normal, mana mau gue makan mie (dih). Masih bisa dikontrol, maksudnya.. Kadang udah masuk siklus hormonal juga masih bisa ditahan, tapi.. yang tadi aku khilaf :') Pertanyaan klasik sih, tapi siapa yang ga suka mie? Siapa? SIAPA?? (santai wey). Mie, makanan yang ditemukan di zaman Dinasti Han. Yang udah diolah jadi berbagai jenis dan rasa, jadi penyelamat perut mahasiswa, yang menemani di sela-sela percakapan tengah malam di warkop.. Aku Rasanya yang kenyal, lembut saat dikunyah, rasanya yang lumer dan menyatu di dalam mulut.. Ah, mie... Aku padamu.. Aku cintaa

where you'll get blamed for things you made and how you act will get you slayed and what you think is not relayed this is a place where money rules and this was not taught in schools and you just wish you are not fools hoping life won't ridicule this is a place for zero mistake oh God please give me a break.

There's nothing frustrating (at least for me) than feeling stupid. Definition of stupid : "Lacking in intelligence or exhibiting the quality of having been done by someone lacking in intelligence." (Wiktionary) That's right, lacking in intelligence. I like smart people, they use advanced words to express their knowledge. I can learn from them. Their depth and wide understanding on how this world works, their wide vocabularies when having philosophical arguments or such.. But at the same time, I feel stupid and damn, I can not understand any of this. Did I not use my time wisely before? What have I learnt this whole life? It's like 6th grader all over again. Everyone understood the topic our teacher explained, and there I was feeling like an idiot because I understood nothing. These smart people must be laughing at us primitives.

Sour, mate. I acknowledge that people are demanding that there should be lessons at school on how to do your tax, or how to manage your finance, or how to count your alms (for Muslims). And I finally feel what all the fuss is about. Indeed. We need to learn about those practical skills before entering adulthood. A place where you get slapped and punched by responsibilities, and living expenses. I am not trained for adulthood. I learned about tax back in university but I didn't practice, so that won't make any difference for life after university. I learned a lesson on how to count your alms back in school, but honey, it was ages ago. And I didn't even finish my online course at Future Learn about managing money. In this desperate time, I really need a time machine so I could just go back to my childhood where the challenges were just facing bullies. That's right. At the moment I do think bullies are not as scary as responsibilities. I could just cry and ignore b

It's tough. Especially if you're a working-pregnant woman who commutes everyday using commuter line train and TransJakarta bus. Yes, there are special seats for pregnant women in the train and the TransJakarta, but you just can't help it when it's rush hour and you're departing from the 3rd-4th-5th-and more stations or bus shelters where the mentioned public transportation are already filled and crowded from other commuting people (hah, what an ineffective sentence). I witnessed, several freaking times, where I saw pregnant woman stands in the middle of crowded passengers, both on the train and the bus. Trying to hold and protect their tummy from the pressure. Oh, I'd give my seat, if I myself were sitting. And of course I helped them to find a seat and sit down. But that one time I couldn't help her to sit down as the priority seats in front of us were already full of pregnant woman. It really bothers me the whole ride because we can't move either,

The words are walking around And she grabs them, word by word, places them on her mind, arranges them in order "I have them, but they don't have me" Those words mean something, she says They are representing something And then she chases more words She's hoping her heart would be at ease Words are running faster Then she manages to catch them all "I would do anything for them" She's catching her breath But that was hard, she says Why are they running? I'll stop, she says I'm always looking for the words But they never look for me I, I give up.. It's been a good time, a great time But it was one way, not the other Then she let those words go It's a good bye

16 Februari 2015, 08:30 Awak duduak di kursi, sadang manunggu mbak Rini yang ka maagiah tau awak tentang magang iko. Iyo, awak karajo. Walaupun magang tapi saindaknyo awak ado kegiatan, ado karajo, basalang satu minggu abis wak wisuda. Ndak banyak urang yang langsuang dapek kesempatan karajo mode awak, jadi awak bersyukur. Tapi beda jo ama wak, agak barek hatinyo caliak awak cuma jadi anak magang. Jujur awak agak sadiah. Tapi baa lah, yo namonyo gaek pasti nionyo anak dapek karajo tetap abis wisuda. Apo lai anaknyo talambek lulus.. Ah, abaikan lah. Sampai ma wak tadi? Oiyo, awak sadang manunggu mbak Rini, yo? Bara kali wak mancaliak ado staf mudo kalua lewat pintu di muko awak. Mengabaikan awak yang lah mode urang ongok di kantua urang. "Bolok lai ko", berkali-kali wak bapikia mode tu. Tapi yo mungkin kayak gitu yo.. tahun lalu awak magang sumantu ko juo. Duduak sambia manunggu urang tibo. Rasonyo lah baabaik-abaik awak duduak. Lamoo bana.. Akhirnyo tibo juo mbak Rini

Wajahnya basah, mungkin dia baru mencuci muka, atau dia baru saja ambil wudhu. Aku masih duduk di sini, TV menyala namun aku tidak memperhatikan sama sekali. Sesuatu tentang betapa kacaunya penduduk bumi ini, aku rasa. Aku hilang dalam lamunanku, menelaah semua percakapan yang terjadi lima jam lalu. Apa yang terjadi? "Ayo, sholat." ajaknya sambil mengecilkan volume televisi. "Ah, iya.." tentu saja, sholat Isya. Aku pun berjalan ke kamar mandi dan mengambil wudhu. Wajah, tangan, rambut, telinga, dan kaki. Anggota tubuhku hafal gerakan ini, bahkan ketika aku tidak bisa mengingat hal lain. Kenapa aku tidak ingat hal lain? Kenapa baru sekarang aku peduli? Ya Allah maafkan hamba-Mu. Bahkan di saat seharusnya aku mencurahkan segala perhatian untuk menyembahMu aku malah memikirkan hal yang lain. Mengapa sekarang? Mengapa sekarang aku baru mengkhawatirkan masa lalu? Mereka bahkan bukan orang yang aku kenal. Kenapa aku harus peduli? "Assalaammu

I always hated you, for everything you've done to me, for everything you haven't done to me. I always hated you, that I've killed you several times in my mind, in every possible way. I always hated you, and I always resent you. I didn't treat you good enough. I didn't take care of you. I didn't appreciate you very much that I always blamed you when things went wrong. Sometimes I didn't feel grateful to be with you, even though you were here all the time. It was so hard to forgive you, harder than forgiving anybody else. But you know what? As much as I hate you, I always try to love you. And I will, I will love you I will love you for the rest of my life I will love you until our hair turn gray I will love you for the good, and the bad I will love you, and I will forgive you I will take care of you I will appreciate you And I will try my best to make you a better person I AM sorry for everything, And thank you, for everything. Dear Self