Gubak Surep

There's nothing frustrating (at least for me) than feeling stupid. Definition of stupid : "Lacking in intelligence or exhibiting the quality of having been done by someone lacking in intelligence." (Wiktionary) That's right, lacking in intelligence. I like smart people, they use advanced words to express their knowledge. I can learn from them. Their depth and wide understanding on how this world works, their wide vocabularies when having philosophical arguments or such.. But at the same time, I feel stupid and damn, I can not understand any of this. Did I not use my time wisely before? What have I learnt this whole life? It's like 6th grader all over again. Everyone understood the topic our teacher explained, and there I was feeling like an idiot because I understood nothing. These smart people must be laughing at us primitives.

Sour, mate. I acknowledge that people are demanding that there should be lessons at school on how to do your tax, or how to manage your finance, or how to count your alms (for Muslims). And I finally feel what all the fuss is about. Indeed. We need to learn about those practical skills before entering adulthood. A place where you get slapped and punched by responsibilities, and living expenses. I am not trained for adulthood. I learned about tax back in university but I didn't practice, so that won't make any difference for life after university. I learned a lesson on how to count your alms back in school, but honey, it was ages ago. And I didn't even finish my online course at Future Learn about managing money. In this desperate time, I really need a time machine so I could just go back to my childhood where the challenges were just facing bullies. That's right. At the moment I do think bullies are not as scary as responsibilities. I could just cry and ignore b