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I will love you

I always hated you, for everything you've done to me, for everything you haven't done to me.
I always hated you, that I've killed you several times in my mind, in every possible way.
I always hated you, and I always resent you.

I didn't treat you good enough. I didn't take care of you.
I didn't appreciate you very much that I always blamed you when things went wrong.
Sometimes I didn't feel grateful to be with you, even though you were here all the time.
It was so hard to forgive you, harder than forgiving anybody else.

But you know what? As much as I hate you, I always try to love you.
And I will, I will love you
I will love you for the rest of my life
I will love you until our hair turn gray
I will love you for the good, and the bad
I will love you, and I will forgive you

I will take care of you
I will appreciate you
And I will try my best to make you a better person

I AM sorry for everything,
And thank you, for everything.

Dear Self.

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