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Day 19 - Self Quarantine

I actually felt better today, just a mild headache and less sneezing. But I still don't like how it feels, like I still can't function normally. I was supposed to go to the office today but I switched my schedule with my supervisor so I can come on Monday. I drank Yakult, but my stomach always grumble afterwards.. There's no sunshine today, so I didn't go out today..

My sister has been cooking me meals and I do the clean up, wash the dishes, do the laundry.. I don't know how long can I survive this condition. I need to talk to my friends!!!

I ordered this San Gyu from grabfood app, it's some kind of rice with beef like the ones from Yoshinoya but cheaper. After I ate, I opened my phone to find several texts on WhatsApp from my family group chat, my office colleagues (my boss telling me the things I need to do once I go to the office this Monday) and my big school classmates group chat. One of my friend is getting married tomorrow but there will be no party because of this social distancing COVID 19 thing, then I suggested to play Werewolf on Telegram. There were 8 of us but it was fun. I actually feel better now. Maybe because of the interaction or maybe the vitamin I took yesterday finally cured me, anyway I am grateful it's over..

And oh, it's technically day 20 because it's 1.27 am and I can't sleep.

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