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K2N

Tahun 2011, kak dika nyeritain pengalamannya ikut K2N. Hari itu juga gue bertekad buat nyoba daftar K2N tahun depan dan jadi salah satu target yang harus capai sebelum lulus kuliah. Well, kenapa gue segitu pengennya ikut K2N ini? Beda dengan kampus-kampus lain, K2N di UI ga jadi satu kewajiban dan hanya orang-orang terpilih yang bisa ikut kegiatan pengabdian ini. Tempatnya? Hoo.. Garis terluar Indonesia! Tapi sayang sekali, tahun lalu ada mata kuliah mps-amp-mpa dan ada turun lapangan penelitian bulan Juni tahun lalu. Temen-temen gue di GC, rahmat-ema-ican, lolos dan gue semakin memantapkan diri buat daftar K2N tahun ini.

Sayang, tahun ini gue ada mata kuliah magang.. Well, gue tetep ngirimin esai. Kalaupun emang lulus gue bisa nunda magang ke semester depan. Oh, tahun ini tujuan K2Nnya ke maluku dan papua. Maluku dan papua! World knows both are heavens in Indonesia. And I am not just talking about Papua-papua. But Raja Ampat-Papua!! Sampai akhirnya, waktu nelpon mamapapa (biasa, anak rantau) dan bilang kalo libur semester ini ada magang dan K2N di maluku papua, papa bilang gue urus buat magang aja, K2N jauh..

Yaah, di sinilah dilema gue dimulai. Gue tetep daftar magang dan mulai ngelupain K2N. Berpikir ga mungkin lolos seleksi esai karena gue merasa isinya ga bagus dan gue lupa nyantumin sumber. Tapi, apa yang gue dapet tanggal 1 Mei kemaren? Gue lolos seleksi esai! Waktu itu di kelas AKN, Rina ngasih tau kalau gue lolos seleksi esai dan satu kelas kasih selamat, disalamin. Hari itu gue berasa berhasil nemuin mesin waktu, bangga! Dan gue satu langkah lebih deket ke target gue, ikut K2N UI. Ruli, Dewi, dan Dhika dari negara A ternyata juga lolos. Oke, gue makin yakin buat serius di seleksi wawancara. Terus, magang gimana? Papa gimana? Gue berniat buat ngasih tau papa kalau gue bener-bener udah lolos semua tahap seleksi, karena kemungkinan gagal di tahap ini juga ada. Tapi, jujur gue ngerasa optimis dan yakin bakal lolos tahap ini, yang ternyata salah besar.. Setelah dua kali bolak balik buat wawancara, kehujanan, dan nunggu berjam-jam..

Semalem, Mei ngasih tau kalau pengumuman seleksi wawancara udah keluar, dan.. Ga ada nama gue. Haha. Haha. Haha. Perasaan gue ga jelas. Sedih? Pasti. Seneng? Bisa juga..

Sedih karena ga lolos. Ga jadi K2N. Ga jadi ngalamin berbaur sama masyarakat kaya di Brebes atau waktu gue ikut UI Desal. Ga jadi ke timur Indonesia, yang bakal jadi titik terjauh gue di negara ini. Ga jadi dapet temen baru. Ga jadi..

Seneng karena ga perlu susah payah izin ke mamapapa. Seneng karena beberapa anak graffiti juga magang di jakarta. Seneng karena ga perlu repot ngurus persiapan ke sana (maunya langsung, *tring* sampai!)..

Sigh.. Kenapa gue ga lolos? Mungkin semesta tau ini yang terbaik buat gue. Mungkin semesta mau ngasih hadiah lain. Atau mungkin semesta tau gue terlalu optimis dan menjatuhkan gue. Atau karena gue ga bisa renang? Hh..

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