Gubak Surep

What were his final thoughts? What did he feel? What did he want to say? What did he wish to do one last time? Now did he really leave or is he still around? Watching, seeing Look after them for a couple of days Or weeks What is he doing now? Is he okay?

The land breeze stopped as the funeral finished. The sky turned dark and people started to drift apart, one by one, from his grave, my cousin's grave. I looked upon the west sky as I walked by his sister's side, the sky was still pretty clear and I could see the crescent moon shining brightly again, just like the night before. And I thought to myself, "It's a good day to take some rest, Adam." Saturday Morning I opened my eyes and reached for the phone to check the time. It was 9.40 am. Ah, yes. I decided to continue my sleep after subuh prayer. I was too sleepy to think about yet another imaginary future life with this particular person. This person has been on my mind for as long as I can remember and I didn't know it'd drain my energy to a whole new level. As beautiful as this imaginary life could be, as much as I want it happens in a real life, I took this sweet sweet candy floss to my bed hoping my brain could render the images on my dream. The su...

Because of life Because life has the best sense of humour Because I'm counting days to the road, unknown Because some hormones spike up and spice it up Because my insecurities are still here telling me I'm not worthy Because no matter how much I convince myself everyone has different timeline, I'm still terrified Because I crafted these images on my mind Because you're the images on my mind

Tulus, a well-known singer in Indonesia once sang a song called "Gajah" (elephant), one of his beautiful songs from the same title as its album, which was released in 2014. The song tells us about his struggle when he was younger who was often called elephant, because of his appearance who they said to be a resemblance of this beautiful creature. He then also used this song to promote a campaign about elephant: #JanganBunuhGajah, especially Sumatran Elephants which face extinction, collaborating with WWF Indonesia. Being one of those people who also (claim) to fight for animals right (I haven't done much really), I started to post some contents to my Facebook page and Twitter about elephants, in order to raise people's awareness about the wildlife animals. I consider myself to be a rookie in this field, heck I even just started to dig more about elephant, their behaviour, their true nature, their population, and what danger faces them. A couple of years ago I went to...

What's your dream job? If anyone asked me this question, my answer was and will always be: anything related to development jobs, specifically environment. Let it be administrative assistant, customer service, or heck I'm even willing to be just a volunteer.. I have this volunteer blood in my vein it's just I feel fulfilled if I am meant something to society, to help around. But boy can we support our life with all that? I am in the midst of this so called quarter life crisis like millions of people have. Twenty something and haven't found my way of living. You optimistic people call this status, the one I'm in right now, a jobseeker. But I'm gonna stick with the unemployed thing. Sound hopeless I know, but it's been 6 months and aside from 5 tests, 1 FGD, and 3 interviews, rejected applications, moving around in 4 cities, and a lot of walking around, I've accomplished nothing. It comes to the point where I just realised that... I am too dumb for my ...

I have to tell myself this Bitch, you gotta stop worrying about how much appreciation you'll get, how you have to start being good and feel good about yourself. Don't hesitate again, k? You're good, you're amazing. You're doing well. It's okay to put yourself out there. Don't mind the others. K? Ok??

I sure do write a lot lately 😅 Yeah so since OUAT is in hiatus and I've caught up with its 129 episodes and I keep rewatching the episodes (the ones with Killian and CS scenes of course, duh) now it's time to catch up with The Flash and I'm just starting to watch season 2. Well usually I watched Glee Christmas episodes to feel the Christmas spirit, because it just, it means a lot to see a holiday theme in TV series, not to mention that it's close to my birthday too. I'm glad I was born around Christmas time 😂.  Raining outside, a hot tea, and a marathon from TV series and movies with winter are just perfect. But, since I've erased most of my collection (need to format my HDD and I only saved important ones 😔) I don't have anything to "celebrate" this holiday. I made a wish earlier today, that I wish I can watch an episode with Christmas theme, and at that time I can only remember Glee. But I don't have Gl...