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Being a 26 yo, day 6.

Hello, 2019.

First day of this Gregorian calendar and the first off day in weeks after having a full month of overtime work at my second unit of internship. I have used my time wisely: not going out and just stay at home doing things. Time, well spent ☺.

2018 was a good year. I was happier, compared to 2016 and 2017, but I carried a heavy burden on my mind because I was such a jerk and coward and chickened out. I am sorry. I am sorry that I just realized that I am not a good person. I am sorry for everything but the thoughts of every possibilities that might happen if I see you scared the shit out of me. Why am I like this? Why? I hated it.

But I'm grateful. I met a couple of good friends who have the same jokes, similar taste of food, and love the idea of exploring new places other than shopping malls. They are the kind of people I didn't have when I was working at the last two different offices. I created so many memories with them that I will cherish til the end of my life. Hopefully.

So, here's to better life better me in 2019. Although it's hard to imagine, and I cannot believe I'm gonna say this but: I think I'm ready to settle down.

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