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gue udah janji sama diri sendiri ga bakal posting hal lain kalo belum selesai nyeritain not a traveler story sampai selesai. tapi ya, namanya juga ghina. pertahanannya gampang runtuh, kaya kemaren yang 3 kali berturut-turut digoda akhirnya luluh juga, sampai kebablasan malah di godaan ketiga.. ah yaudahlah, gue juga ga mau nyeritain itu. ntar aja kalo udah keliatan hasilnya.. (loh, ini apa?)

oke, jadi selasa di semester 6 ini jadi identik sama.. hari kuliah paling "tertugas". apa itu "tertugas"? yah itu cuma istilah yang gue bikin-bikin aja, soalnya matkul perbandingan administrasi negara sama administrasi lingkungan punya jadwal yang jelas di minggu ke berapa aja harus presentasi, diskusi, atau bikin review. administrasi lingkungan sih oke, buat sesuatu yang gue suka gue rela dikasih banyak tantangan. tapi, perbandingan adm negara? well, jawaban gue 50:50..

50% merasa tertantang (serius, ghin?) dan 50% merasa... ugh.
asik sih, kita kebagian tugas buat nyari data-data negara di kedutaannya langsung. tapi itu buat ntar, buat tugas kelompok (ga bisa dibilang kelompok sih, dari 11 kelompok yang kebentuk, kira-kira 8 kelompoknya cuma ada 2 orang, including me). nah ini, tugas individunya. bikin review dan dikumpulin di minggu kedua, keempat,  dan kesembilan. minggu kedua bikin review tentang budaya politik dan kaitannya sama sistem adm negara. dan minggu ini, minggu keempat, tugasnya bikin review masyarakat prismatik (prismatic society) nya Riggs. gue udah dapet bahan yang bahasa indonesia loh, tapi teteeep aja, kebanyakan dan.. gue masih stuck di halaman 15 (yaiyalah, daritadi internetan. pfft) dari 56 halaman. reviewnya maksimal 5 halaman. haha. haha. mau gimanapun syarat-syaratnya, gue yakin banget, nyampe halaman 3 buat review ini udah hamdalah. gue pikir cuma gue yang bermasalah sama bahannya, ternyata setelah gue liat timeline twitter, yang lain juga ga ngerti sama bahan ini. ada yang bilang, menjelaskan contoh dengan contoh yang justru bikin ga ngerti, ada lagi yang mikirin gimana supaya sampai halaman 3 dengan bahan segini banyak, ada yang baru bikin tapi satu halaman aja belum selesai, ada yang.. belum mulai. bukan, bukan cuma gue, tapi temen gue anak kelas A.. huftt

oh, dan gue juga maju presentasi buat pendalaman materi adm lingkungan sama koya dan madok plus anak 2011 yang nyodok. gue udah baca dan bikin ppt bagian gue. tapi tetep aja kayanya belom hafal sama materinya. which means gue harus bikin contekan juga.

doooh begadang? itu sesuatu yang menakjubkan buat guee. jujur gue paling males tidur di atas jam 12. gue masih sayang sama liver dan ginjal gue bro.

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