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another useless holiday

I was right. I'm almost doing nothing but staying at home during this holiday. no courses, no travelling.. just watching running man, and laughing stupidly in my room. well, I actually have an unexpected reasons. due to family problems and financial supports I can't help myself but trying to avoid the sensation of having fun outside this house. I can even count how many times I went outdoors. once when I went to mom's hometown (not a good trip) and it was just a one day trip, 5 times gathering with my high school classmates, once ngabuburit with my friends in the neighborhood, and last I went to an ITP TOEFL test at ITI. yeah. my holiday is not like my friends who had summer school in Korea, Germany. or having a french course, or travelling abroad, or climbing mountains, diving, snorkeling, airsoft gun war, paintball war, volunteering......


sigh.

germany..
so, some people I know, had recently been going to Germany. my auntie. she visited her husband's family in Germany. my senior, for environmental purposes. last July he went there, and will be going back to Germany in November. fun. and last, my friend who has summer school in Germany. I saw her pictures, and made my brain cells stimulated to produce "jealousy" feeling. why can't I? I know, I am not qualified enough..

aaa I have a lot of things in my mind and I just can't spit it out! no, it's not just about this freaking useless holiday, but the story behinds it. I've got tons of reasons why I am so not enjoying this holiday.. :(

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