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masygul uas

sebenernya gue lagi ga mood nulis. gatau deh ya, gue semacem demotivasiooong belakangan ini, lebih tepatnya setelah uts. kayanya semua jiwa raga dan kehidupan dan perjuangan gue untuk semester 3 ini cuma sampe uts. miris. gimana ngga? jadwal ujiannya menyiksa banget. gue yang biasanya dapet jadwal ujian mepet 1 minggu selesai, lha sekarang malah dapet jadwal ujian yang menyiksa pelan-pelan, perlahan, pasti, dan mati. ada 7 mata kuliah yang tersebar di 7 hari ujian dari 14 hari yang di sediain. senin, selasa, rabu, kamis di minggu pertama, terus selasa, rabu, jumat di minggu kedua. mata kuiahnya meeen, mata kuliahnya kebanyakan itung-itungan. bukannya gue ga suka itung-itungan.. gue suka.. apalagi ada 2 mata kuliah yang (seharusnya) bisa gue handle karena latar belakang gue yang dari ipa, statistika sosial dan matematika ekonomi. tapiii materi setelah uts itu lhooo yang nyiksa cerebrum gue.. belum lagi materi hapalan dan teori ini itu yang berkaitan sama jurusan ini.. ha! jangan lupain akuntansi. gue udah ga ngerti lagi kenapa sampai sekarang logika gue ga pernah sampe ke akuntansi. plussss gue susah fokus dan konsentrasi di kelas. aaaaaa terlalu rumit. gue konflik batin :(

ya, dan gue harus menghadapi kenyataan uas kurang dari 2 minggu lagi dan gue-belum-siap-sama-sekali.

OH, DAN GUE MASIH HARUS BIKIN TUGAS PENGANTAR PERPAJAKAN BUAT BESOK!

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